I was struggling to write the past few days. It was hard to embrace the commitment to create at least once a week to give it away. This is something familiar because I made a lot of commitment to myself many times in the past.
Right after giving birth to my son, I promise I wouldn’t gain weight. I read a lot of literature on preventing weights and I manage until I lost him. When I was gaining more than I should, I started doing some exercises which lasted for a week. I also worked on my diet but go back to what I used to take a bit later. I continue gaining weight to my heart’s dismay. I stop the exercise and diet plan altogether telling myself I don’t have time to do. I have all the excuse for not doing what I have started.
A few years ago, I work on my finances realizing there was something wrong with the way I handle it. I learned everything I can from selling real estates, investing in money markets, paying my debts, saving and giving. But after a while, I see myself in the same old pattern of dealing with money. I lost some of the investment and made some that brought me to a never-ending chaos.
Writing a blog once a week gives me some sense of accomplishment and a natural good feeling until doing so became a struggle. I keep making titles for my blog post but would not be able to publish any one of them.I remember how I wanted to write a book since time immemorial. I have titles every year and a few pages of them but never finish anything until I lost my son.
The thought of not being able to sustain the good things lingers in my mind for quite sometimes. I thought there must be some wiring in my brain I needed to check. I realized the energy I needed to sustain the struggle to do is the same energy required to do what I needed to. Awareness and discipline where to put the effort is the key.
It was so easy to beat myself up when I think I never do anything right. The writer’s block is not only true in my writing but in my life as well, block in doing the good things. Now I see there are some things I recognized I was doing quite well. At least I write every day in my journal. I just did it after all!
You’re an inspiration. Glad you took the first step and that is what matters. Quantity and quality doesn’t mat, doing matters.
You did it!
Just did it!
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Thank you! I;m happy to hear that 🙂
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Thanks for your response! Do share. Someone might benefit.
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You too! It’s a great thing to share something we have 🙂
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You motivated me to write today! I think that this is a network of all of with our own stuff… Eloquently written! I’m glad you wrote today!
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Thanks! Just republished that today! It was written a long time I;m sure still true at this point. Thanks for dropping by 🙂
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Is there a possibility you have been struggling with an underlying depression for years. Depression effects our motivation. It is sad that we can beat ourselves up for something that is beating us up and effecting our lives in ways we do not see or understand. Love and hugs!!!
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Many times in the past I thought of the underlying depression even until today.The reason why I am always keeping my journal, somehow t helps me deal with. Thanks for dropping by good to hear from you again. Sending love and hugs to you as well:)
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Love and hugs to you too Aui!!!
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This is awesome.. I find myself in the same shoes at times, of recent I discovered most of the time, I’m the one responsible for my writers block. I just try as much as possible to stay motivated at all times
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Sometimes it is difficult to get motivated but I just write anyway!When I sit on the keyboard and type the word or even look at the screen for the longest time, when my hands started to write, the motivation to go on came in. So Just write! Thanks for dropping by 🙂
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You’re welcome ma’am
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thanks soo much to follow my blogging
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thanks and all the best for you
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Oh, Aui, so many can relate to your post. I sure can. I’ve been having a difficult time writing lately–those darn inner critics and old tapes saying what good does working on self-improvement do? Those who’ve experienced loss and trauma have to persevere even more than some might. Let’s help each other stopping beating ourselves up. I think you are amazing! ❤
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Thank you Mandy. Almost everyday is a struggle especially with with tangles of so many things to do. I take the first hours for myself, praying, reading the word of God, writing to my journal and finding things to be grateful. So far those things help. Rewiring my mind from the effects of the past is not an easy thing to do, but those routines help me live the day with ease. Thank you for dropping by 🙂
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I so understand. Staying motivated is so hard. I’m with you!!
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Thanks 🙂
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Aui, my dear friend, as I said in the other blog that you need help, blogging helps a lot but it has limit and I’m sharing this after one year of hellish depression. I used to blog sometimes 5 poems/songs a day.
It all worked great but then stopped working. I found that noone is there for me, just to realize that God never left me, I only have to accept him to be anew, born again spirit filled. Set free. Trust me I’m 100% depression free, mind it not struggle free but now when struggle hits me most of time i realize that God is making me strong in him through them. So why not become strong in faith to love myself? And others?
Come let us pray.
God merciful father today I lift up My friend Aui to you, may your holy will be done in her life through Jesus Christ in Spirit I pray Amen. Peace be with you friend.
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Thank you 🙂
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One day at a time….
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Ya that’s true, sometimes it’s moment by moment 🙂
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Very good post! Some days it’s hard to be motivated. I noticed in my reply to you on my one blog post I put a mistake in my email address! Here is the right email, sanchez.a15@yahoo.com
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Ok. I will send it today. sorry for the late reply 🙂
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